Monday, November 23, 2009

Baby Steps

Chris seems better this evening, he even had supper started when I got home. Woohoo! Maybe this morning is a start... I think that when he asked me this morning about "forgiveness," in all honesty he was afraid my answer would be him. I have NEVER blamed him. I hope deep down he knows that. I just wish I knew how to make him believe that and truly I realize that I can't... only HE can. Last night was a rough one for me but ended up so sweet... I had stayed up late working on a crosstitch project that I want to finish for a Christmas present and then went to bed to read (surprise, surprise). The part that got to me was about a mother and daughter having a "spa" weekend, it really got to me. It's those time I want to remember. The mani/pedi's, coming to see me in Va. and Mo., going to DC, going to the movies, slumber parties, her laugh, her smiles and all that stuff. I remember the Sunday before Rachel died, we skipped church and I went into her bedroom just to watch her sleep. I then remember crawling into bed with her and snuggling up just for a bit. Such a sweet memory. I finally put the book down and "tried" to sleep. He kept "nudging" me to get up, I got up, went downstairs, tearfully and timidly knowing He wanted me to tackle what I had dreaded and could not and did not want to look at. I opened her door, I had to ask Him to take away the vision in my head of her standing in front of that mirror one last time... He did, I started with the photo of her with Laura Bush with many tears. I moved around her room just taking them all in. Studying each one as if for the first time. The bulleting boards she made, precious memories... many tears and even some silent giggles. I noticed the one of her at the regional track meet - it may be one of the last photos of her, I am not sure. If not the last certainly one of a few. Precious! After that I went to the computer and pulled up all the facebook photos and began putting captions and tagging some people. It was hard, but fun and such a sweet time spent with Him. He made it easy. There are still more to tag and caption but baby steps, right? So healing and comforting. And no more feeling guilt about not being able to look at them... After I finished, I went back upstairs thankful for the precious time spent with Him and with her. I went to bed and fell fast asleep and slept well. Amen! Hallelujah!!!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Show us your life... Our Favorite Thanksgiving foods...

Of course we have the traditional turkey and cornbread dressing, smashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, green bean casserole, cranberry relish, pumpkin pie, pecan pie and rolls. But our ABSOLUTE faves are Buttermilk pie and Scalloped Pineapple, YUM!!!!! This is only the second year since our precious Rachel and my sweet daddy passed away. Therefore, the holiday is still a bit bittersweet. We have so much to be thankful for as a family but most especially thankful to know that one day we will see them both... Thank you Jesus!!!

Scalloped Pineapple
(my daddy's fave)

Ingredients:

2 cups sugar
3 eggs well beaten
1 cup margarine (2 sticks cut into pieces, I use butter, the REAL thing)
1- 20 oz can crushed pineapple
4 slices of bread (cut into 1" squares)
Mix together well. Bake for 30 minutes at 300°

Buttermilk Pie
(Rachel's fave)

Ingredients:
1 stick butter
2 cup sugar
3 eggs
1tsp vanilla
Dash nutmeg
1 cup buttermilk
1 TBS flour

Directions:
Cream together butter and sugar. Add eggs, vanilla nutmeg, buttermilk and flour. Pour into a 9” deep dish pie crust or 2 regular. Bake at 350 for 45 minutes. Allow to cool completely